Thursday, April 15, 2010

what i really wanna do?

right this moment, i should have been writing on second chapter of my final assignments. instead of writing this kind..
but i don't know.. i just don't think that i really want to do it right now.
i know, i have so many reasons to finish the final assignments as soon as possible.
but, i also see that the thing is i do that alone make me feel really not enjoy that. reading.. and reading.. thinking.. writing.. reading again.. thinking again.. and writing again..
what are the hard parts of that? i don't see any, maybe you all don't see them either..
but, it came to my feeling.. my brain.. which made me really hard to read the materials i should read at..

so, the question is..... what i really wanna do?

it's still absurd..
it's still gray..

could someone understand my feeling?

why i am so lazy..
why i am so hard to put effort on this..
why now?
at the moment when i should give my best effort..

please.. take away this lazyness..
please..
please help me..
:(

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

constantin pilavios

huwaaaa..
he is my new favourite director!
berasal dari yunani.. tinggal di athena.. dan pertama kali liat karyanya:
what is that?(2007)
small pleasures (2008)
dan banyak lagi film-film pendek lainnya.

apa yang bikin aku suka sama dia?
1. he is only 4 years older than me.. but his works are super amazing!
2. he makes the simple stories but with deep and inspirational messages in there.
3. he is so hot! damn! so hot!
4. from his works i learn that 5-minutes-duration-film could change my perspective of life forever.
5. he lives in greek, athens. the place where i always want to live in.
6. i don't know.. i just love him and his works soo much!!!!!!!

ini ada beberapa karyanya yang jadi karya favorit ku..




hmmmm...
dan ini foto si abang CPIL..
hehhehe



okay,, and i really hope that i could meet him someday..
i want to take a picture with him.. and i want to ask him for an autograph..
bhihihihihihihi

:) :) :)

Monday, April 5, 2010

its april

mei..
juni..
juli..
goodbye..

wah.. tinggal beberapa bulan lagi kita sama-sama di TI ITB.
banyak banget hal yang ga akan aku lupain disini..
mulai dari kenal sama seluruh anak di angkatan.. bisa nyapa dia kalo ketemu di jalan.. *gak kayak waktu sma, smp, apalagi sd.. yang meskipun tau dia seangkatan,, tapi ga pernah kenalan.. di sini. aku merasa kenal sama banyak orang. bahkan temen2 satu sma yang tadinya aku ga pernah ngomong sama skali sama dia.. eh tau2 jadi temen akrab.

kehidupan mahasiswa merupakan kehidupan sekolah terindah buat aku. bisa ngerasaain tinggal ngekos sendirian. ngerasain ga pulang beberapa hari tapi ga ada yg protes atau nyariin karena lagi ngerjain tugas. ngerasain sakit sendirian di kamar tak berdaya. ngerasain sedih dan kesepian. ngerasain seneeeeeeng banget. ngerasa banyak banget yang harus dipelajarin sampe menganggap bahwa aku ini sangat bodoh. ngerasa bareng-bareng, seru-seruan, bikin acara kampus, siap2in acara kampus, ngeliatin senior-senior keren dan mengaguminya dari jauh.. aduh.. banyak sekali yang aku alamin disini.. dan jauh lebih banyak daripada pengalaman ketika sd,smp,dan sma..

selain itu.. masa 4 tahun kuliah ini, juga merupakan masa terakhir ku dimana aku bisa belajar bareng-bareng temen.. dan bener-bener ngerasain pertemanan yang sesungguhnya. nanti kalo udah S2, atau mungkin S3.. aku ga bisa belajar dan berkuliah seasik ketika S1.

kekecewaan terhadap apa yang aku peroleh di sini.. kesulitan dan kekesalan yang menggunung selama disini kucoba hilangkan dengan terus menerus mengingatkan pada diri sendiri bahwa yang kuperoleh disini adalah sangaaaaaat banyaakkkk.

aku gak yakin apakah nanti setelah lulus bakalan bisa ngobrol sama sofi kayak sekarang.. bisa makan sama prilla kaya sekarang.. bisa ketawa liat tingkahnya tidi kayak sekarang.. bisa tuker2an dividi sama nad kayak sekarang.. bisa tiba-tiba ditelpon atika dan dicurhatin kayak sekarang..bisa tiba-tiba didatengin farah dikosan kayak sekarang.. bisa ngedenger celoteh jahatnya wina kayak sekarang..bisa main-main sama fanny, mira, arum, tania kayak sekarang.. bisa ngobrol-ngobrol dan seru-seruan bareng kaca, riris, hafni dan teko kayak sekarang.. ato sekedar karokean bareng ina, lalla, tiwi, fitri kayak sekarang..

pertemanan saat kuliah buatku jauh lebih manis dan lebih indah daripada pertemanan ketika aku sd, smp dan sma.. bukan berarti temen-temen sma dan smp ku gak baik.. cuman waktu yang kuhabiskan bersama teman kuliah jauh lebih besar.. mungkin karena aku disini ngekos.. jadi kehidupan kampus sama aja kayak kehidupan setelah di kampus.. ketemunya ya sama-sama lagi ajaa..
beda kan kalo yang tinggal di rumah. kehidupan rumah bersama keluarga pasti berbeda dengan kehidupan kampus.. hehehe..

gak kebayang deh betapa sedihnya harus kehilangan teman-teman dan momen yang saat ini sering banget terjadi.. aku bakalan kangenn banget sama saat dimana menghabiskan waktu bersama teman-teman meskipun itu disaat kita lagi ngerjain tugas! oh astaga!

bulan april udah dateng.. semua orang lagi pada sibuk ngerjain tugas akhir nya masing-masing. jujur aja.. tugas akhir beneran memuakkan. aku ga suka. apalagi saat harus ngerjain itu semua sendirian. hahaha. ternyata meskipun aku anak rumahan yang sukanya nonton dvd di rumah aja.. bakal sangat kesepian kalo harus ngerjain tugas sendirian. huhuhuhuhu

entah kenapa.. lagunya vitamin c- graduation buatku masih terasa paling pas dalam menunjukkan apa yang ada di dalam hatiku ketika saat ini tiba. saat kehilangan masa bermain bersama teman-teman..

~~~~~ mari bernyanyiii ~~~~~

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Will Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
Come Whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

La, la, la, la
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly